There’s no easy way to start a post like this, so I’m just going to say it straight: living with multiple mental health conditions is a lot. It’s more than a full-time job, more than a weight—it’s an entire storm system, and I live inside of it every single day. Last night was one ofContinue reading “When Everything Is Everything: Living with Anxiety, Depression, PTSD, and Bipolar Disorder”
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Let Me Be Open
Yo… Can I talk to you for a minute? Not the polished version of me — Not the highlight reel, Not the “I’m good, just tired” lie I keep in my pocket Like loose change I keep spending on surface conversations. I mean the real me. The me that hesitates before pressing “send.” The meContinue reading “Let Me Be Open”
Today Was a Good Day: A Reflection on Growth, Grace, and Showing Up
Today was one of those rare days where everything feels aligned — not because it was perfect, but because it was real. There were laughs, deep thoughts, sun, food, and moments that cracked my heart open just enough to let some light in. It started off simple enough — church in the morning, which alwaysContinue reading “Today Was a Good Day: A Reflection on Growth, Grace, and Showing Up”
My Body Won’t Let Me Die
Spoken Word by Marty I’ve been lying in bed, with the weight of the world pressing full against my chest— not like Atlas carrying the globe, more like being the pavement beneath it. Cracked, silent, invisible until someone trips over me. All I want to do is vanish, fade like fog in morning heat. NotContinue reading “My Body Won’t Let Me Die”
The Weight I Wear
I wake up before the sun has even sighed, and wear a smile like armor— not joy. Just a habit. A mask. Another role I didn’t ask for. They call me strong. Reliable. “Solid.” But solid doesn’t mean whole. It means no room to fall apart. I say “I’m fine” like it’s a reflex, likeContinue reading “The Weight I Wear”
How Boyfriend Material Wrecked Me—in the Best Way Possible
I didn’t expect to cry while reading Boyfriend Material by Alexis Hall. Sure, I expected to laugh (which I did—loudly and often), and I expected some swoon-worthy moments (there were plenty). But what I didn’t see coming was how deeply this book would speak to the broken parts of me I’ve tried to keep hiddenContinue reading “How Boyfriend Material Wrecked Me—in the Best Way Possible”
Update 2: When Everything Feels Heavy
I thought being sober would fix all my problems. I really did. People made it sound like once you stop drinking or using, things just… get better. That life would slowly fall into place. That clarity and peace would come flooding in. And to be fair, some of that is true—sobriety has cleared my mindContinue reading “Update 2: When Everything Feels Heavy”
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